Not everyday feels successful...
Feeling incredibly defeated today. It's slow, and I have no clients or applications to process, so I should be feeling light and airy. A slow work day at my desk should be relaxing and welcomed.
But inside I can't stop thinking about how hard I'm fighting to reach people with my work, my writing, my group.....everything. Today just feels like one of those days where none of it seems to matter.
Maybe it's because I woke up to what felt like a rude message from someone I envied and enjoyed following. Maybe it's fatigue. Maybe it's the fact that my page has reached zero people and generated zero likes.
Am I even meant for this? Should I even BE writing? What the hell am I doing wrong that my calendar and feed seems empty while everyone else is full of followers and love :/ Why do I feel like I'm forcing my dream into reality.
I am tired. I am frustrated. I am struggling to understand many things tech related when it comes to websites. But I have so much determination and so much heart for this. I just don't seem to have the audience to back it up right now.
So today, I just feel defeated.